Personal Relationship with Jesus
Relationship with the Lord started in year 2000. When I first gave my
life to the Lord during a church service, a "complete awareness" came
over me. It was as if all my senses had a total makeover. The vividness
of different colors of clothing worn by the people in the church and
how individuals worshiped stood out clearly to me.
I also became aware of my own
uncleanliness. The alcohol that was still swirling around in my veins
from the big drink up at the officers mess the night before. The
presence of the most Holy God makes you feel dirty and unworthy. I did
not want to be in the same universe with him, much less in the same
church building, in case I tarnish His presence with my uncleanliness.
My immediate thoughts were to go
away and clean myself. But a loving thought kept coming to me. "Come as
you are and let Me wash and clean you" The Lord was asking for a
Personal Relationship with me.
Then I felt a deep, deep cry of
resignation and helplessness coming from somewhere else. It did not
feel like it was coming from me, but I noticed tears started rolling
off the tip of my nose on to the concrete floor. It was me and I was
sobbing somewhere deep within me.
I can't explain in English what I
was going through. These tears and the sobs were not coming from
anywhere in my six foot plus frame. I felt like I had become so huge
like the universe and somewhere deep deep in me (in this huge universe)
was coming this cry and the tears, which would physically flow out of
I felt my tear ducts and the lump in
my throat were not able to hold these "mega tears" that were coming
from somewhere deep within the 'Universe' in me.
I now am beginning to understand
what the Bible means by the deep calling to the deep. It is all about a
deep Personal Relationship. God's Eternal Universe calling to a portion
of Eternity which He created in you. Glory to God.
this experience brings you to a place where you just cannot stop
talking about Him. Eight years later and I still talking about Him with
the same vigour. Every chance we have I am out there ministering or
preaching about Him and the Personal Relationship He wants to have with
us. You may have read in one of the pages of this site titled 'A Police
Officer and The Lamb of God'. It is about my baptizm in full police
The deep hunger to know Him, to
fellowship with Him, to communion with Him, to talk with Him, to walk
with Him, to sing of Him, to have a Personal Relationship with Him, is
more than words can express. It gets better and better by the moment.
Sometimes I think of the Apostles of Jesus, when they came to this
place, nothing in the whole world could stop them preaching.
Am I now made perfect? No I am still
much the same person I was, however my daily walk and communion with
him over the years has caused me too see life differently from what I
used too. I am more relaxed now. I hand all my worries to Him to
handle. I just walk with him while He carries my load. My Personal
Relationship with the Lord has spilled over into my family life as
well. I love my family a lot more now then I ever did. My wife more so.
I now spend a lot time with them than I used to. My attitude to life in
general has really taken a major turn and I thank God and give Him all
the glory. Halleluiyah
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